Saturday 18 January 2014

Flight Attendant

I came across a friend via facebook, coincidentally working in the same airline with one of my secondary schoolmate. And they worked together, and became bff.

Small world.
But that's not the point in this post today.
Was browsing through her photos and start to feel envious of her/them.

Ever since I met Vinc, one of my dream was withdrawn from my life.
No, I'm not blaming him for this, but just the priorities in life have changed.

I use to like travelling, alone. (Yes I'm talking about travelling, not being a flight attendant)
I know it is dangerous, but it thrives me.
And my previous job gave me the opportunity to do so.

Travelling alone needs some courage. And it made me a more independent person in whole. I learnt to manage my time, pack my own bag, be responsible of my well being, take care of my lunches and dinners, make sure I am feeling okay both physically and emotionally, be wary of strangers and learn some "social street smart".

So, like I say, I was browsing through Ms J's facebook and see the places she set her foot in, and became really envious. I started imagining myself one day, stepping into foreign lands, looking at the places in her photos.

Korea, Sweden, Paris, Italy, Prague, Mauritius, New Zeland, Austrialia and so on ... And I came up with a conclusion.........





I CAN'T FLY SO MANY PLACES UNLESS I'M A FLIGHT ATTENDANT!!


So, well, let that 'dream' be only a dream.
I will sit in my reality.

Friday 17 January 2014

8 Week 2 Days

Long winded and wordy post.

MummySG has been helping me A LOT. I get a lot of information on morning sickness, comfort from other mummies, new knowledge all from there. All mummies are helpful and they share their real life experience which I find pretty useful!

Also, during my 5th Week, I was telling myself that I will cut out on cold drinks. Seriously, you can't, when you are craving for cold stuff and you need to get it right there into the stomach before you find comfort. There's no way to avoid it!! So, I read about some people drinking coke all the way till they give birth and they are doing well, and that gives me some comfort that I'M NOT ALONE!! And I started choosing drinks that 'sound better' like sprite (no caffeine) or milk, or Qoo..

To be really frank, when you know that you are responsible with a new life inside you, there is no way you can get that out of your mind - 24/7 ! You began feeling stressed, and even in your sleep, dreams haunt you! 

And to be really frank, husband cannot do much for you in a lot of cases. The best they can do is to bring you a tissue when you threw up, pat on your back telling you that you are doing well, comfort you by saying "All mummy has the greatest love" .... 

Alright, I'm not regretting this pregnancy, but looking forward for morning sickness to go off soon. My appetite is not really good still at the moment, and I became really picky. I'm glad that people around me caters to my needs most of the time.

Again, many mummies comfort each other by saying "Morning sickness is a good sign that your baby is growing due to all the hormones". We, the 60% whom (sad to say) got these symptoms, can only cross our fingers and hope 2nd trimester to come soon.

Now i'm in my 2nd month, everything is fine since i'm resting at home. I am the few lucky ones who do not need to work and I really appreciate the husband for this decision. Many mummies have to bear with their nausea and still head to work in that sardine packed MRT every day. 

I AM BLESSED!
Now, at 2 months old, this is how Baby Lee looks like: 

Diagram extracted from BabyCentre!
Lots of information from there too!


Hope you can figure out cos hubby can't! XD

Tuesday 14 January 2014

8 Weeks (Appointment)

Went for routine check up.
Baby Lee is 8wk +/- 6 days today

It grew from 0.38cm from previous check up, till now, 1.67cm at 2month old. Doctor says Baby Lee is growing well.

See Papa Lee figuring out the two scans.


Told doctor about the vomiting, dizzy, lost of appetite, tired etc etc and he only concluded it in one sentence "Pregnant is like that one" =.=

Was prescribed with some medication and was told to rest more.

Alrights ~ o.o
4 more weeks to see you again baby Lee :D

Sunday 12 January 2014

7 Weeks 6 Days

Its not good. 
I'm feeling sick whole day and sleeping in doesn't help. 



I can be woken by a piercing headache in the middle of the night, or gastric pain, or suddenly feel giddy from my dreams. 

Sigh.

Tuesday 7 January 2014

4PM Is Happy Hour

For the past 3 years (plus), 4pm is a happy hour to me.
That is because I used to work till 4.30pm, and 4pm means knocking off soon!

But no longer now. (Bah!)
I use to tell hubby how appreciative I am towards my previous job, cause I get transported to and fro home, and I get to go home really early. I get good remuneration, good benefits, food is cheap (and good!) I would reach home at 5.45pm and start playing with my dogs, bring them for walk and clean them up.. And spend really quality time with family. On top of that, I get to travel while I get paid.

Work was stressful but fulfilling. 
I get a lot of satisfaction from there and life remains fair. 

Not until the retrenchment came about.
It was a horrid. It blew my dreams away and created chaos in my life. I miss working there with these people. I miss so many things which I can never find them back anymore. That kind of effort I put into work, that seriousness and willingness to learn.. I can't find them back in me anymore.

I felt betrayed.
All the efforts I put into became a Thank you & byebye. 

Well, since I am in a new company now, I should have put in the same amount of effort. But I just can't bring myself into the system. I have a lot of resentment and rejection, and refuse to wake up from reality that I need to start moving again. 

Sigh... I hope time will tell.
Time will let me sink into this new workplace comfortably.

Monday 6 January 2014

6 Weeks 3 Days

The nausea feeling increases as days goes by since the start of my 7th week. And all I can do is to swallow it back. I don't want all the nutrients I consumed to be wasted.

Axe oil is my best friend now.


Not much appetite, but feels hungry every 2 hours.
If tummy gets empty, all the sickness will come.

Please let me have a healthy baby.
Boy or girl, doesn't matter.






Hubby has been really patience with me and I tried not to be unreasonable. My mood is good so far, except when the weather is hot - I can get pretty frustrated and keep whining like niki.

Hubby also prepares my daily needs like soy bean milk and dry biscuits, put them in a box nicely for me to bring to work. He's always been so nice. That's what I love about him, being so patience.

He may keep asking "Is there anything I can help?", especially when I feel sick! But I'd tell him It's OK cause there is nothing much he can do in fact.

But I love him. And I know he will love our child.

Saturday 4 January 2014

6 Weeks 1 Day

3 days in a row, I've been throwing up and sleepy.
I can sleep whole day and waking up just for food.
Throw up after meals, and go back to sleep again.

And finally I see a doctor yesterday.

Baby ah, baby, will you be a good boy/girl when you grow up?
If you would, I am all in to accept this tough pregnancy in return.

But if you don't, we will still love you.




Whipped Potato became my daily must-have.
Poor husband gotta go que up specially for me.
How nice.

Please let this morning sickness go away soon ~